TheUprisingSun
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Bleeeeggggghhhhh
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So.... long time no post, huh?
To be honest I've been feeling like absolute CRAP lately and have lost most of my motivation towards writing anything. Not to mention I've been preoccupied with university. (WHICH IS SO DRAINING. SCREW GETTING UP AT 6AM FOR 9AM LECTURES!!) Ughhhhhhh, not to mention I'm sick again.
Another thing! This may be somewhat disappointing to my readers, but as I'm gonna be turning 20 in August I now feel really weird writing anything for Attack on Titan characters who aren't at least 18 years old, meaning that I'm not exactly comfortable with writing my first fic 'Monster' anymore. Which is a shame, considering I started writing it in 2013, but I was 16 at the time, so it didn't feel so weird back then.
In regards to my other story 'Time' I will be continuing it, however the love interests will be changed to Levi, Erwin, Mike, and Hanji. Any interest shown by other characters will be written off as "puppy love" crushes.
I hope you guys understand and stick with me despite all this, though I won't blame you if you decide to move on.
PS - For those of you who asked for a note of the 16th entry of 'Monster', I just now realised that the name blanks I had written were filled in by an extension I have installed on Chrome called InteractiveFics. So I'm sorry if you received a note that had 'Maddie' instead of the usual name blank! (I'm kicking myself for not noticing sooner)
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gUHHHH I thought that finishing school would mean that I'd have more motivation to write stuff... but really I've just dug myself deeper into a hole of procrastination, existential crises, depression, anxiety, sickness, social isolation (I guess that just comes with the package of living in the country parts of West Auckland with no means of transportation outside of the "parent taxi service". ALL MY FRIENDS LIVE IN TOWN/THE NORTH SHORE PARTS OF AUCKLAND WTF *ahem*), and writer's/artist's block.
I feel like I can probably link most of those things to the fact that I've run out of my antidepressants and haven't had my prescription renewed since maybe... October of last year? I'm a train wreck and it feels like my life is being flushed down the toilet and BY GOLLY I'M ONLY 18 WHY THE FRICKITY FRACK DO I FEEL LIKE THIS?!
Blegh, this journal entry... bleeegggghhhh....
I think the main reason I decided to post this is because I just needed somewhere/someone to vent to. I'm so tired. I feel like I'm leeching off of my parents, I'm feeling depressed/suicidal again... The only true thing I feel proud of doing this year was completing a commissioned tattoo design for someone for $100. And that was AGES ago. It's here if you want to see it. iheartcalibrations.tumblr.com/…
God, this journal update is so depressing... sorry... Thank you to those who still support me anyway. <3
I feel like I can probably link most of those things to the fact that I've run out of my antidepressants and haven't had my prescription renewed since maybe... October of last year? I'm a train wreck and it feels like my life is being flushed down the toilet and BY GOLLY I'M ONLY 18 WHY THE FRICKITY FRACK DO I FEEL LIKE THIS?!
Blegh, this journal entry... bleeegggghhhh....
I think the main reason I decided to post this is because I just needed somewhere/someone to vent to. I'm so tired. I feel like I'm leeching off of my parents, I'm feeling depressed/suicidal again... The only true thing I feel proud of doing this year was completing a commissioned tattoo design for someone for $100. And that was AGES ago. It's here if you want to see it. iheartcalibrations.tumblr.com/…
God, this journal update is so depressing... sorry... Thank you to those who still support me anyway. <3
Also, here's a shameless self-plug of my stuff you can follow.
AO3: archiveofourown.org/users/Vitr…
INSTAGRAM: www.instagram.com/maddieormsby…
TUMBLR: iheartcalibrations.tumblr.com/
AO3: archiveofourown.org/users/Vitr…
INSTAGRAM: www.instagram.com/maddieormsby…
TUMBLR: iheartcalibrations.tumblr.com/
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These journal titles can suck it.
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Tumblr: iheartcalibrations.tumblr.com/
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Alrighty. It's been a year since I posted anything on here that wasn't a journal update on how much of an idiot I've been.
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Alrighty. It's been a year since I posted anything on here that wasn't a journal update on how much of an idiot I've been.
...
Yep.
I'm so sorry to those of you who haven't given up on me yet, but I'm thankful to you too. <3
I only have about 3 weeks left of high school until I'm thrown into the world of adulthood next year and possibly tertiary studies in 2017. (Hopefully in either Fine Arts, Architecture, and/or Interior Design) And I'm slightly freaking out over that. Not to mention that I have still got assessments due before school's up, including completing 8-ish oil paintings and my architecture portfolio. (⊙‿⊙✿)
I'm also aiming to get my drivers license and a job before the year is up, at least to get my mum off my case.
So hopefully, with school out of the way, I'll be able to focus more on writing things that I enjoy instead of crappy half-assed essays that make me want to gouge my eyes out with a rusty spoon and then proceed to tear out my hair and slam my face against a wall. Repeatedly.
But, I would also love your feedback and ideas for how you'd like my stories to go. For both 'Monster' and 'Time', if you are willing to give any ideas that pop into your head, those ideas may just be the very things that motivate me to write more efficiently. I'll even give you a little shout-out in the description box. ✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ:* \(◕‿◕✿)/
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Ughhhhhhh
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Sorry for disappearing off the face of the earth for so long. Unfortunately I've hit a really bad writer's block in regards to anything Attack on Titan lately. (blame Bioware. Seriously.)
I've slightly migrated over to AO3, just because they're a lot more lenient in regards to what I can post, so if you're into Mass Effect or Dragon Age, I'm slowly working on a story here: archiveofourown.org/users/Vitr…
Sorry for the inconvenience, but I promise that I will eventually get around to continuing my other stories. (It might help if you guys could give me some ideas. *wink wink*)
Also, NEW TUMBLR ACCOUNT. If you have a Tumblr, it'd be awesome if you'd follow me: iheartcalibrations.tumblr.com/
I've slightly migrated over to AO3, just because they're a lot more lenient in regards to what I can post, so if you're into Mass Effect or Dragon Age, I'm slowly working on a story here: archiveofourown.org/users/Vitr…
Sorry for the inconvenience, but I promise that I will eventually get around to continuing my other stories. (It might help if you guys could give me some ideas. *wink wink*)
Also, NEW TUMBLR ACCOUNT. If you have a Tumblr, it'd be awesome if you'd follow me: iheartcalibrations.tumblr.com/
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Explanation for my absence...
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So, it has been a while since I last updated anything...
Sorry about that.
Unfortunately I was hit rather unceremoniously by the cursed writer's block. No matter what I tried to write, it all seemed like utter rubbish to me.
I've also been having more of a social life as of late. What with the addition of therapy and medication I've been placed with, my confidence and willingness to go on in life has improved greatly. Instead of closing myself away in my room for the entire school break, I actually decided to hang out more with my friends and start living my age. (Yesterday, I played paintball for the first time ever and loved it.)
I know it's a little late, but I'm hoping this year will be a good one. Not only in regards to updates, but also since this is my last year at school, I'm hoping to make it count.
Thank you to those of you who have been patient with me. It means so much to me. <3
Sorry about that.
Unfortunately I was hit rather unceremoniously by the cursed writer's block. No matter what I tried to write, it all seemed like utter rubbish to me.
I've also been having more of a social life as of late. What with the addition of therapy and medication I've been placed with, my confidence and willingness to go on in life has improved greatly. Instead of closing myself away in my room for the entire school break, I actually decided to hang out more with my friends and start living my age. (Yesterday, I played paintball for the first time ever and loved it.)
I know it's a little late, but I'm hoping this year will be a good one. Not only in regards to updates, but also since this is my last year at school, I'm hoping to make it count.
Thank you to those of you who have been patient with me. It means so much to me. <3
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